This is just my way of letting it all out without caring who is reading or watching.

These are a bunch of random unorganized thoughts. Sort of like a mirror of my mind.
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Walk with Christ…

I’m at that point in my life where I’m just doing things.  I know where God wants me to be and some i’m terrified of and others i’m not ready for and I keep doing a bunch of little things to get me there but it’s not enough. There’s this hunger and burning desire inside of me but i’m too busy or just lazy to fill it. I know God’s mercies and love are new every morning but I need to be more proactive with my walk.  I can’t and shouldn’t go a day without talking to him- not talking AT him. Talking TO him, WITH him.  Waiting to listen but I do and that’s not how a relationship should be.

Please give me the grace to fix it God.

“He shall call upon Me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble; I will deliver him and honor him.” “The desire of righteous will be granted” [Proverbs 10:24 NKJV].

“The prayer of the upright is His delight” [Proverbs 15:8 NKJV].

“If you abide in Me, and My words abide in your, you will ask what you desire, and it shall be done for you” [John 15:7 NKJV].

By God has wonderful blessings and promises in His word for us but He also requires something from you. Salvation, yeah that’s free so is His grace and mercy but His blessings? Being the one after His heart, having confidence that what I say is what will abide all that takes a little more.  It comes at a price- being righteous, upright and abiding in His word.  We know that faith without works is dead.

Faith says, in spite of what I see, in spite of what I hear, in spite of what I feel, in spite of what I taste, in spite of what I smell, I believe everything’s going to be all right because God is with me.

Power Over Sin

I was reading Romans because our pastor suggested that we read 10 chapters a day and I tried and I learned on central theme from the first ten chapters, FAITH.  All you need is faith, believe in God, believe in His existence, believe in His love and be slaves to him and not sin.  By slave I don’t mean it in the “worldly” sense it’s just when Christ died we were redeemed from sin and a lot of us still struggle with it, which is okay- we are human but the thing is we’ve been given victory over it and we need to realize that. Sin doesn’t have to be inevitable, it doesn’t have to be something that just happens we can have the spirit guide us and become righteous- the way God wants us to be.  We can’t just say “i’m human i’m going to sin”. No God has higher standards and expectations for us past that and we need to act accordingly.  Believe in Him, ask for less and less of your worldly being or your human desires and ask for more and more of His spirit in you and receive the grace to overcome sin.  The wages of sin is death and we cannot continue to sin and just hope His grace will abound.  Ignorance is not bliss because He has told you where the answers are so seek His face, read his word and you’ll be on the right path.

Venting…

I hate that feeling of insecurity that comes with relationships or really anything you do.  That gray area that you just have to leave as is and hope everything works out and works out beautifully, hate not knowing and sometimes not being able to control.  I know there are things in life that you need to let run it’s course but it blows.  I hate the amount of power the other person has or the “universe” has or chance.  I just wish I could know everything sometimes, see everything, understand everything, control and manipulate everything.  

But I can’t and I realize that’s where faith comes in, in yourself, in God, in your relationship.  I know that I need to let go and let things just happen the way they are meant to sometimes because sometimes your best plans might be the wrong path for you.