This is just my way of letting it all out without caring who is reading or watching.

These are a bunch of random unorganized thoughts. Sort of like a mirror of my mind.
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Church/Charity.

I was talking to one of my “mentors” at church on Sunday about my problems at church and we drifted off and he mentioned how charity work is important.  I think the church is failing as a whole when they don’t involve in things bigger than themselves.  I think when we just come to church, donate money to build a bigger church and pray for ourselves, families and places we’re from we are not doing what God wants us to do. He said to love, to care, to feed the hungry not look out for yourself and yours. Go read Matthew 25: 34-46.  

I”m definitely guilty of this too but I’ve been working on it and the church as a whole needs to step up. [Of course not all churches are guilty of this.]

Spiritual Journey

"Wherever the Lord is is where I wanna be"

But I find myself being distracted by everything. There’s never enough time in the day.  And come the end of the week, almost every week, I dread going to church because of the people I just don’t want to- CANNOT- deal with.  And now i’m blaming everyone else but me for my spiritual stagnancy which is one of the dumbest things I’ve ever done. But it’s hard.  It’s hard to be perfect and spotless. It’s hard to love your neighbor when they get on your last nerve.  It’s hard to wake up Sunday morning wanting to go to church when you know deep down it’s become a routine and the people smiling at you at the door are spreading rumors with those same lips come 12:00pm.  I’ve been reading my devotional without fail but I know it’ll take more than that.  I need to find myself in God again, I need to wake up hungry for Him.  Might take a minute but I’m going to get there, and stay there.