This is just my way of letting it all out without caring who is reading or watching.

These are a bunch of random unorganized thoughts. Sort of like a mirror of my mind.
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I miss you…

I feel very off balance and not myself when I don’t feel anchored in God.  When I’ve drifted off and started to think that everything is my own doing and not God’s grace.  When praying and reading my bible is now an after thought.  When going to choir practice becomes a chore.  I can always refuel.  The position of the gas station didn’t change, I just need to go get it.

Back to Basics…

To whom much is given much is expected.  We are extremely lucky to not be living in places around the world where all they’ve literally got to cling to is their faith in God.  That’s what keeps them sane and hopeful.  In a way, they have more of a reason to believe that there is no God that loves them while they are going through all that they do. It could’ve been any of us. Why weren’t we born in those places? And if we were why did we get to leave while others are facing turmoil and death everyday? We’ll never be able to comprehend it. Instead of using all we have: the technology, money, power and freedom to praise God and just simply be grateful, we use those things to justify why we don’t need God. To continue in our “self-made” attitude.  To whom much is given much is expected. God will ask.  That’s why it says in Matthew 19:23-24 that it is painfully hard for a rich man to make heaven. Not because wealth is bad but because we start trusting it instead of God.  We can easily trust our bonus and jobs for our next meal while others in those places can ONLY trust God. 

We have to live life realizing we CANNOT and shouldn’t even try doing anything without Him.

Love is slow to suspect but quick to trust; slow to condemn but quick to justify; slow to offend but quick to defend; slow to expose but quick to shield; slow to reprimand but quick to empathize; slow to belittle but quick to appreciate; slow to demand but quick to give; slow to provoke but quick to help; slow to resent but quick to forgive By Word for you today.

Walk with Christ…

I’m at that point in my life where I’m just doing things.  I know where God wants me to be and some i’m terrified of and others i’m not ready for and I keep doing a bunch of little things to get me there but it’s not enough. There’s this hunger and burning desire inside of me but i’m too busy or just lazy to fill it. I know God’s mercies and love are new every morning but I need to be more proactive with my walk.  I can’t and shouldn’t go a day without talking to him- not talking AT him. Talking TO him, WITH him.  Waiting to listen but I do and that’s not how a relationship should be.

Please give me the grace to fix it God.

One step at a time…

We get shielded for so long and our parents make all our decisions and then we get to make them but they have to approve and all at once you realize: it’s my life.  What you think is important… sometimes but I have to live with the decisions at the end of the day.  So you get that autonomy and want to do it all… at once and it screws with you.  I just know I get this heavy burden and this “I cannot fail” feeling that doesn’t go away and then I get crippled with fear which only leads to me not being productive.  But you just gotta take it one step at a time.  Do the little things- especially those that lead to big things like going to a resume workshop or taking a class that’ll make you look really good in the job search.  That’ll get you ready for the big stuff.  And do not forget to put it in God’s hands.  He will direct your path. =]

God is Working out His Plan for You.

“I make known the end from the beginning.” Isa 46:10 NIV 

You are not a mistake your parents made in the heat of passion. What your parents did may have been illegitimate, but you are not. You may wonder: “God, is it possible that You have a reason for my conception? Am I called to do something great in life? Is there something so unique to my personality, so connected to my life experiences, so relative to my sphere of influence, so dependent upon my color and culture, so necessary to my needs and shortcomings that nobody can do it exactly the way You want it done but me?” Yes. God says, “’I make known the end from the beginning…My purpose will stand.’” You are going to succeed because God has already determined your destiny. Before God establishes the procedure, He decides the purpose. When a builder is confused he refers back to the blueprint and checks with the architect. God is the architect and builder of your life. He never gets confused about what He’s planned or how it’s to be built. When He builds something, it’s built for maximum efficiency and optimal performance. We think, “Lord, why are You holding me back while others get to go forward? Why is it taking so long for my breakthrough to come?” God responds, “What does the blueprint say?” God is building a solid foundation under you so that you’ll be able to handle the pressures that accompany His blessing, and go through the storms of life without being moved or shaken. Anything that’s made well is made slowly. Anything that’s worth having is worth fighting for.

From The Word For You Today.